Grace Falls Down

Did you ever feel like you just had to stop a moment and take everything in? – to just look up at the sky, look around at the people, or gather your thoughts? Well, I’ve found myself using this as a way for me to reflect on my day and to also realize the beauty that God makes in everything. I think we often pass over the stuff we see daily. I know that in my own life, I sometimes, okay often times, get caught up in the future and how what I do today will determine what happens. However, the here and now may not give me a future and so I need to live for today…I mean really live.

I think it’s right for me to share that God has done a huge work in me these past two weeks. It may seem more internal than anything, but its results have literally changed my heart. I have struggled for a long time now forgetting who a truly am. I know I’m made by God…that part never left my mind, but I forgot that I AM God’s. Do you know what I mean? I was being told daily that I wasn’t working hard enough, or dressing right or helping out enough and I was letting all of this define me. It consumed me and tangled all of my thoughts and actions. I know that this is deep, but I felt compelled to share because this change that God made in me can happen to you too.

It became tiring to be who I really wasn’t. I was emotionally, physically, and spiritually sick. Literally. The worst part is, I didn’t even know it. All of these lies that Satan was working through to my head, really entered into my heart. After being confused for so long as to why the enemy was attacking me, God made it clear to me, that I could surrender and die to Him once again to be made clean. I want to tell you, THAT’S exactly what I did. I re-gave my heart back to God: and what I mean by this has nothing to do with me not believing in God for a period of time, but I suddenly realized that giving your life to Christ really means GIVEit. Not to just say you will give it to God and then live life battling through, like I did, but to put your hands up high and let go of your heart. This isn’t to say that life with Christ is a simple breeze…but what this does say is that surrendering your heart COMPLETELY will allow God’s grace to fall down more freely.

God’s grace….breathe for a moment and let that sink in…

I am in the upmost need of God’s grace and I will be the first to say that no matter if I’m happy, sad, or mad. God’s grace rained down on my heart two weeks ago and since that day, I have never been the same. Yes I still stress and worry, but that is how God made me to be. The change within has helped me realize that who God intended me to be is just okay. Others may continuously tear me down, but now the new me doesn’t look at myself and say, “ohh, I need to change that.” -no, instead I now say to myself, ” This is how my God, Father, Savior, and Creator made me. Thank you.”

When grace falls down on you…man, I can’t explain it. Your heart….just melts….and yearns….for everything that God’s heart does. I am a new creation right now, and I am happy with who God made me.

My heart just doesn’t partly belong to God; it fully does. Living for Christ and showing who He is isn’t always easy, but now I fall face down to my God and die daily of myself so that He may reenter once again everyday. With Him in me, I am in Him and that is all that I desire. No more halfway in for me…I am all in!