Summer Has Arrived…Which Brings Questions

I have been giving the wonderful opportunity to be the summer intern for the children’s ministry of both our church campuses, and I must say, this opportunity came to me as a complete surprise.

For quite some time now, I thought for sure that I knew where God was calling me; Physical Therapy specifically, but within ministry, I’ve felt led to the youth. I went into my first year of college studying just that: PT and youth ministry. Yet, along the way, events came up that presented opened doors for me to speak and share with others what God placed on my heart.

I developed a true passion for public speaking that I never even knew existed inside of me. “What could this mean?” I thought to myself. I don’t know what I would ever do with public speaking. I feel too afraid to pastor because although I love the Bible, my knowledge of it does not bring out confidence in me, and I do not want to teach the Bible incorrectly. However, the things that I am most passionate about are my faith and spreading it with others through speaking. In that case, where could God use me?

As far as helping with the teens at the church, I have thoroughly loved every second of it. My heart goes out to the teens because it was in my middle school days that I turned away from God and wanted absolutely nothing to do with Him. For that reason, I want to be an example to the youth that they can stick out their school days strong in their faith. I want to come along side them as a friend, bigger sister, and even mentor. I can be myself around the teens, yet they respect me as a leader when we go to have Biblical discussion. Where God continues to surprise me, is how someone like me, who is nowhere near confident in who she is or where she is to go, can be used for the Glory of His Kingdom. All I desire to do is help the youth know that they are loved by One that will never fail.

This summer, I am going to be quite the busy bee with a bunch of little ones! With the internship, I will be doing a lot of work for Vacation Bible School, Sunday mornings, and many other events. I love kids so much, but I’ve always felt like they never adored me. I’m not quite sure what God is trying to teach me this summer, but whatever it may be, I am ready.

Needless to say, I am a little worried about where exactly it is that God is calling me to continue ministry. Whether that is in Physical Therapy, public speaking, with the youth or with children?

Perhaps all that He is calling me to right now, is to be willing. Willing is who I am then.